He's just not that into you.

So it's time to vent again. I've been feeing happy, sad, happy, sad, lately. Like my mood just switches up on me. I think its only cos' I like to over elaborate on things & that makes me stress even more. I NEED TO ST0P STRESSiNG. Everyone keeps telling me that I'm too young to stress, but daamn I can't help it. So yesterday I went & seen "he's just not that into you" with Paul, & daamn that movie got me hella thinkin. Maybe he really isn't that into me. Ugh. I'm definitely into him tho. No doubt. I don't think I've ever felt this way with a guy before. Even when I was with Ruben. Yah me & him been together for hella long, but straight from the gate with him the feelings were different. It's weird. I mean not weird. I'm just not that use to it. Its a good feeling thats why. I have a good feeling about this one. I think this one is sooo worth the waait. I mean if anything ever happens that is. Like I said. I'm not rushing anything. Let time take its toll. :] Anyways. Ruben? My mom asked me about him today. My exact words were "eww. don't bring his name up. I hate him." shit look how bad we ended. He got me fucked up f'reals. Like what does he want from me? What did I do wrong to be sucha bad girlfriend. According to him I was. What the feezy? I was a fuckin good girlfriend. I did everything for this nigga. I supported this nigga. I spoiled this nigga. I was the only one there for him. & what do I get in return? Being labeled as a shitty ass girlfriend. Ugh that still hella upsets me. Guys are soo fucking stupid. Well he is atleast. I always get taken for granted. Eww. Why am I even talkin about him. I don't need this. What I need is to change all my shit so he has no contact with me whatsoever. Anyways imma blog more laterr.

-Jessica Jane