Life

Dear Diary,

So I finally got this blog spot thingy. I was gonna just re-open my xanga just so I can blog, but I thought to myself, "who uses xanga still now a dayys?" BOPS! haha. Swear I'm not hating. & plus I got tired of writing blogs on myspace. So venting time. Ughhhh I'm soo fucking stressed out. No one understands me. I hate it. I feel like the only thing that keeps me sane is writing my feelings down. Maybe thats why I blog a lot. Is that a good thing? Haha. Anyways. Parents are most definately stressing me the fuck out. F'reals. Its getting hella annoying. Especially my mom. It's like daaamn. Give me some room to fucking breathe. & School? Lets not even bring that up. I mean I'm doing soo well this quarter. I think one of my bestest quarters. Hence that I'm taking harder classes too this quarter. I'm pretty proud of myself & happy that I'm actually getting good grades on my test & quizzes. But ughhh I hella feel like I'ma be stuck at DeAnza FOREVERRR! I just want to finish already. Thats why I signed up for Academy of Salon Professionals. I swear doing make-up & hair is my passion! I love it. But my mom does not see eye to eye with me on that one. Which hella sucks. & Family? My bestest friend in the whole wide world is in the hospital again. My GRANDMA. Yes she is my BESTEST FRiEND. She's the only one who understood me. She was the only one who cared a lot about me. She was the only one who appreciated me. & seeing her lay in her bed with a million tubes down her nose, mouth neck, arms, etc. breaks my heart. I literally feel broken. I hate seeing her like that. ICU? Thats not good. I want her better so she can get out of ICU. I love her sooo much. I know she can fight through this. I'm praying. & thank you for everyone thats praying for her. It makes me smile & cry at the same time when I go visit her in ICU & she responds to me by holding my hand. :] She's like the greatest grandma ever. I don't know what I would do if something ever happened to her. I think I cried the most out of everyone when doctors let out bad news. It's only because I take care of her, I visit her everyday after school, & I run errands for her. I would have nothing to look forward to if she wasn't here. So I'm praying that she makes a speedy recovery. Love Life? Haha. Oh no. Don't even get me started with my love life. It's very complicating. I'm very interested in this one boy though. Like he gives me butterflies everytime I think about him or talk to him :] Its a good feeling. Ain't tryna rush things tho. Takin' it slow. Goin' with the flow of things. Because I really want to see the outcome of all this. I hope its good :] Haha oh gaawwd. How I hate that us females can't read a guys mind. I wish I could though. It would sure make like a hell of a lot easier. Anyways I'ma go MiMi's :] G'niteee <3



-Jessica Jane <3